Series: Falling #1
Published by Seth Clarke on 3/14/2013
Genres: Contemporary Fiction, New Adult, Romance, Young Adult
I wasn't always in love with Colton Calloway; I was in love with his younger brother, Kyle, first. Kyle was my first one true love, my first in every way.\r\nThen, one stormy August night, he died, and the person I was died with him.
\r\nColton didn't teach me how to live. He didn't heal the pain. He didn't make it okay. He taught me how to hurt, how to not be okay, and, eventually, how to let go.
Falling Into You was at times awkward but altogether not a bad audio to listen to and pretty interesting. I believe I went looking for “romance” titles on audio, to broaden my horizons a bit, and Falling Into You by Jasinda Wilder popped up. I marked it on my wishlist and ended up buying Bared To You by Sylvia Day instead. But the good Audible reviews of Falling Into You kept me coming back to it, so when I needed to burn some credits before putting my account on hold (so I can catch up on all the audios I have on my iPhone), I bought it.
It was a pretty good listen, actually.
Nell and Kyle are the best of friends. Their parents are friends, so they’ve known each other a long time, and then one day, the attraction is just there and they stumble into love with one another. It’s a sweet love, the kind of love we all hope to find in high school, and then wax poetry about staying together forever. Nell and Kyle seemed to really fit together well, and give themselves to each other.
Then Kyle tragically dies in front of Nell, a scene that Wilder wrote very well, and nearly broke my heart. She described the despair in Nell’s voice perfectly, right down to the mud on the tip of Kyle’s shoe laying in the rain. Because when you are in shock and a situation like that, you do see those kinds of things, and they do stick with you.
Nell is obviously destroyed by his death and nothing can console her. Kyle’s prodigal brother, Colton, comes back into town for the funeral, and they do share a moment, but only a moment. However, it is more than enough for Colton to begin pining for a girl he can’t have.
- Sidenote: I think a lot of people might be squeamish that this is the story of a girl who is with two brothers at different stages of her life, but I wasn’t. I’ll touch on why in a bit.
Two years pass and the second half of the book begins with Colton’s voice, and it is sexy indeed. He’s damaged, but not dangerous (anymore). He’s not looking for anything more than to make his living when he sees her, and his world gets shaken up again.
The thing is, they are both still grieving. Nell is grieving inexorably for Kyle. She feels guilty for his death. Colton is grieving for the loss of his little brother that he didn’t even know very well – AND the continued loss of the family he still doesn’t have, because he’s an outcast. He doesn’t feel good enough for her, or for anyone, as a former thug on the streets of New York. Nell struggles with her attraction to Colton. It feels wrong, but Kyle’s dead and wouldn’t he want her to be happy, least of all with someone he loves already?
As two very damaged characters, I saw a lot of good in them together. I did feel like they made each other better people – and Nell was a completely different Nell than the Nell she was with when with Kyle. It was like a whole different character, and I guess she was, technically. Death does that to people, changes them. That’s why I had no problem that she was with both brothers at two different points in her life.
But the book was not without it’s faults:
- He rips her panties off of her (literally ripping them to shreds), but she is looking for them later to put them back on. Some inconsistencies like that take place throughout the book
- Other inconsistencies, like it’s mentioned he’s OCD, but that is never followed up on, or that he can’t read, but that’s never resolved either
- This guy she was seeing in the first part of the second half of the book acts like he’s going to try to rape her. She does not turn him in, but let’s Colton and his old thug-life friends “handle” it – I hate that crap
- The ending was kinda meh
And let’s talk about that ending. Nell misinterprets a lot, because he says he’d like to avoid something, and that something happens anyway. Instead of calling him, she leaves a note taped to her apartment door (which is stupid anyway, you’re inviting a break-in!) letting him know she’s “sorry.” But doesn’t tell him where she went. He of course deduces she went home so books a ticket out of NYC and without getting spoilery, all hell breaks loose, she ends up in the hospital and he’s declaring his love of her to their respective families.
They are still broken people at the end of it, and I know two years isn’t a long time to get over a loved one’s death, but it wasn’t a really happy novel, nor a very happy ending. But I still enjoyed the story. The thing is, I fell in love with Nell and Kyle. And then I fell in love with Nell and Colton. That is really hard for a writer to accomplish so I say well done.